deck the halls

Christmas is going to suck for me this year. Usually I love it. It's my favorite holiday. Especially because the forgotten holiday is only 3 days later (my birthday). But this year it's going to be so different.
I was without a job for a while and that really hurt the pocket book. I have been working at the Topeka Country Club for about the last month now, but the money just isn't that great. It probably could be better, but I only work 3 days a week, all for only a couple of hours at a time. I have thought about trying to find a second job, but there's nothing I could do that would fit into my crazy schedule. I would try to pick up more shifts at the country club, but no one wants to give them up! So basically what I'm trying to say is, I'm screwed!
I know Christmas is suppose to be about the birth of Christ and about spending time with loved ones, but let's face it, it's also about the gifts. I always love to go overboard on getting people things. I always get Tyler Chiefs tickets for his birthday on the 2nd of December, and then something pretty expensive and nice for Christmas. Like last year, I got him an Xbox 360. It took me lots of time and money to find one, but dammit, I was determined! I always buy gifts for every friend I have that is remotely close to me. I like to buy a lot of things for my parents as a way of thanking them for all that they do for me (and trust me, they do a lot for me!). I even try to buy a lot for my sister...and we're not even close! But this year I'm just not going to be able to do it and it kills me. I don't want to be the cheap ass that didn't get much for my friends and family. I know they will all understand that I'm a broke college student trying to pay all my own bills and for school, but it doesn't make me feel any better. I still want to be able to do those things for them.
So I guess this year I'm just going to have to try my best to swallow my pride. I guess there's always next year.